The other day I walked and talked with a friend. I felt safe. There was a quiet understanding and acceptance there – a freedom to be all I am supposed to be. A human touch and validation can soothe in the dark and gray areas that lurk in the corners of our heart and mind. Especially true if you, like I have known the sharp betrayal of trust from a ‘friend’.
Sometimes we can talk more freely to a trusted friend – and not feel that same freedom when we talk with God. Even when we know He will not betray us – or hurt us in any way. I don’t know if it’s because saying things out loud to Him makes us feel silly, and seem unnecessary – as He already knows it all before we utter a single word – or if in saying things out loud confirms just how foolish, jealous, prideful, secretive, malicious and self-serving we are – even in what we feel are the best of circumstances. But I do know this: just because He already knows – does not discount His absolute validation and understanding, His stubborn acceptance and love. As I learn to trust more – with all my feelings, no matter how silly they seem to me – I find no condemnation there.
I once heard a powerful message on the subject about being truthful with God. We can hide from those around us – and even ourselves – but we cannot hide from Him. We may fool ourselves into thinking that He will not know if we do not speak of it – yet scripture and everything we know about God would say otherwise. And still He wants us to come to Him and confess it – say it out loud. I like to think of it like this: If I’m walking and talking with a good trusted friend – I would not hold back in expressing myself. How much more should I trust the one who made me? The one who has a unique “take” on my multifaceted personality - who is not surprised when something is difficult for me to get over – or I cannot seem to ‘get it’? Who lovingly understands when things are frustrating for me. He patiently waits for me to finish my rant when all I want are answers to questions when there are no answers. How much more confidant should I be to bring all to Him – the things He has asked me to walk away from – the things that still bother me – the tears that no one sees? And the absolute feeling of failure because I am still ‘going there’? The fear of betrayal.
If you are on a similar journey – learning to open up and empty out your heart to God – and you’re finding it difficult knowing where to start, remember what it is like talking to your very best friend – someone you trust with your secrets, private emails and conversations. You know they will not betray you – no matter how crazy you sound. They will keep it to themselves and only want the very best for you. God is much more trustworthy than your most trusted friend here on earth. He will not turn you in, ‘rat you out’, embarrass or humiliate you. He will listen. He will quietly wait for you. And then He will lovingly show you what to do next. He is on your side – in your corner and has your back. Forever. Trust Him today. Start that conversation with this:
Dear Lord – I know I’ve blown it big time in the past. I’ve been a big failure and disappointment to others, myself and to you. I don’t want to live that way anymore. I’m tired of feeling bad, guilty and tired all the time. I need you to replace all the icky stuff in my life with your forgiveness, peace, joy and love. I believe you came to earth, died for my sins and rose again to give me eternal life. I believe all I have to do is accept you into my life and that you and I together can begin a new life. I need you as a trusted friend to help me through my many problems and decisions. I am going to start today to trust you. I believe that nothing is impossible with you. Help me to come to you whenever the going gets tough – I am going to talk with you everyday and together we will figure it out. Thank you so much for loving me. Amen
If you sincerely prayed that prayer above – you’re ready to have daily conversations with Him. Let Him into your thought life – your daily circumstances and everything that touches and affects you. Nothing surprises Him – nothing takes Him off guard. He is willing and able to be your support and help in time of need. And because He made you and formed your unique personality – He knows just how to help, comfort and support you – like no one else can.
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