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I looked for someone
like searching in a fog
chasing after
an endless mist
straining for
that unattainable someone
or something
thinking that it would satisfy
what’s deep within
heart-sick and weary
all my efforts
came up empty
and my searching
and reaching
brought no relief
for I found
that in the searching
it was me that I found instead
alone and empty
sad and confused
“Is what I seek
my dream only?
never satisfied
why do
I continue to pursue?
Are my “dreams” just those I make up
bringing emptiness
and endless struggle
instead of fulfillment
and relief?”
And yet I searched for you
my unobtainable someone
and something
that threatened to destroy
and devour me
The one I craved
the things I craved
could be my undoing
and the searching
and dreaming for them
like a slow death
And at the end of the road
I was still there
running on empty
defeated and broken…
It was when I was at my weakest
and tired of running after
and insisting on my own way
that He came
and I heard
a still small voice
and in my confusion
and tears
which caused me to slow down
be still
and listen
that I heard Him
that voice changed me
as He reached in
and held the broken
and confused me
and finally I don’t need to know
all the reasons for before
I reluctantly surrender
and replace
all the running
and searching
for something unknown
instead of something
that does not satisfy
and begin a new path
with His dreams
and plans for me
and at the end of the road
there is no disappointment
and emptiness
or brokenness
and I have almost
vanished from view
even though
my selfishness and pride
are still there
but they are covered
and kept in check
and it is He that is waiting
giving me
a new dream
which fulfills
and satisfies
instead of
all the things
I wanted
and thought I needed
He is giving me
much more
than I could ever dream
as He replaces my will
with new people
new things
and a new dream
What is your dream today? Have you surrendered yours for His?
God Bless
That’s really good, Cindy! You’re an up and coming poet! Poetry is something that has always been a challenge for me. My daughter is excellent at it, but I’ll have to stick to prose. I really like this one.
Love this! I have a dream to write a book. I am open and praying to hearing God’s dream for myself.
I’m so glad Rob! Sounds like a beautiful dream – YOU GO!! I have often wondered if I would tell my “story” in a book someday – I’d have to change names and some details and I wouldn’t want to intentionally hurt anyone – but it’s a story that I would love to get off my chest – we’ll see. I look forward to yours!
Cindy, you have the heart of a poet! How true it is that at the end of God’s road there is no disappointment. You asked what my dreams are today. I’m living in the dream even now. God has amazingly blessed me with new life and, though I stray from the road on occasion, His great love and faithfulness always leads me back. Thank you for sharing this beautiful flow of thoughts – it is a stream in the desert.
Thanks so much Michael! I’m honored that you would come over to my site and leave a comment – you bless me!
WOW! That was amazing! That pretty much sums up my life story, only with words that are beyond mine. The care, thought, and passion crashes through the screen riding on delicate words. Outstanding Cindy. Absolutely outstanding…
Wow. Your words humble and bless me. Thanks so much Floyd
You wrote this? This is absolutely beautiful. Thank you for sharing Cindy. I loved it!
Yes I did. And thanks so much Moe – you bless me.
Love this Cindy! What a beautiful expression of His heart…thanks for sharing!
Thanks Jay
did you crawl into my head today? I had been thinking along this line, and you put it to such beautiful words. Thank you. I found you via Duane Scott.
Thanks so much for coming over to my blog site today, Joy! Glad to have you – thanks for the affirmation – I really appreciate it. Glad you found me. Duane is great
Thanks so much Jason – I appreciate that!
Great flow of thoughts, Cindy. Thanks for sharing this.